So I am someone that does not have a lot of self confidence at all. I don't particularly rate myself and I don't really think I am good enough. I have got better though since I started putting my music onto YouTube and writing blog posts and just being myself a little more. I stopped wearing foundation which for some of you might just seem a stupid pointless thing but it was HUGE for me. I just wear concealer now for my spots and my skin looks fine! But I used to be obsessed with wearing foundation... but it just made my spots and skin even worse! I only wear it for YouTube videos if my skin looks pale or patchy now. And I am proud of that. And it was YouTube and watching YouTubers who inspired me with videos about self confidence to not cover up me.
I have never had self confidence. In school if there is something I feel like I want to do I will only do it if one of my friends is doing it- if they aren't then I just don't do it. And in that respect I have missed out on a lot of opportunities just because I'm 'scared' to do things on my own. I don't even like going to the toilet on my own at school... It's a bit pathetic really! I'm sure it's not just me that is like this- but we need to all just be ourselves, not be afraid of who/what we are and just do what makes us happy.
Instead of our focus being 'what people will think of us' it should be 'what makes us happy'. I need to learn to do what makes me happy. I will be honest with you all- and I'm not proud of it- but yesterday I missed a big oppertunity I shouldn't have. It was the day to record Broken Angel. I had been preparing for ages but I just got so nervous in the afternoon that somehow my head persuaded itself that I wasn't good enough and that I would mess it up... so I went home and shut myself away and hid away from my fears. NEVER DO THAT. I am not going to do that again. I am terrified, yes, but I am going to just do it and try my best. It's my song, no one knows it better than me, the lyrics, the piano, the real meaning. No one.
Always believe in yourself and never give up. This blog post has mostly been about me, rather than giving advice to you- but I hope you can take in what I did say there and learn from my mistakes, because I know I am learning from my mistakes!
I will see you on Saturday for a new blog post, lots of love!! Xx
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